I have been thinking about my spiritual life as I move into the new year. There seems to be constant struggle to find meaning with God. The need to merge with God is strong and very powerful.
However, I come up against the dark wall that is not penetrable. Sitting in a dark searching and hoping for meaning is ever present. Will peace and tranquility ever be part of my life or shall I live this angst forever, Has God forsaken me. I think not but the ever present feeling something powerful is holding me –
Dark Night of the Soul come to mind – am I worthy of God’s love – what am I searching and what is all for. The dark wall is ever present.
“One alchemical statement says that death is the conception of the Philosophers’ Stone. The death of the ego, or the ego experiencing itself as dying, is very often the prelude to the birth of awareness of the self. Jung makes the profound statement in Mysterium that “the experience of the self is always a defeat for the ego.” That’s because an encounter with the greater thing always has a wounding and damaging effect, initially, on the lesser thing. And the experience of guilt belongs to this whole phenomenon of defeat and inadequacy and wounding.” Edinger (1994) P29/30
It is the time of year to think about how we have come out of hibernation and feel renewed due to our own internal rebirth. This is the time to explore your internal world to make new your commitments to life.